Isn’t it such a bittersweet experience to recall your “true love” that you thought once was? How unexpectedly beautiful it is to reminisce fragments of your fond memories of His presence and the withheld confessions and conversations that began it all. The sweet hellos and the exhausted talk to you laters all muffled to a long unending conversation that quickly turned over as the next day began. A new breath of life circled your mind and made your heart beat better, beat stronger. Then slowly but what felt almost all at once, like day and night, things started to shift. Priorities changed. Schedules, paperwork, training, worries, concerns all just happen to grow along the stress that piled your daily hours. Doing everything you can just to get by, words were no longer said and the sweet conversations were no longer a norm but such a rare occurrence.
And then ultimately… Silence.
The gaping hole that filled your heart only grew as your stressful days could no longer be ignored. The best you were doing seemed to never be enough. And when you were almost certain all is but hopeless. You felt His wonderful, gracious, undeserving pursuit.
22 Cast your cares on the Lord
and he will sustain you;
he will never let
the righteous be shaken. (Psalm 55:22)
He pursues. He begins to start the conversation going again. He remains faithful when we become faithless. He nudges our hearts to reignite our personal relationship with Him. When you feel that you’re at your lowest, remember that God’s love transcends all our daily troubles. How His grace is so effervescently present and sufficient in our daily chores. It takes our eyes to see but ultimately our attention to know and understand. My prayer is that we understand and in still in our hearts to feel His grace and His love in all that we do.
27 The eternal God is your refuge,
and underneath are the everlasting arms.
He will drive out your enemies before you,
saying, ‘Destroy them!’ (Deuteronomy 33:27)
9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. (2 Corinthians 12:9)
The burning fire and passion that you once felt when you first came to know God is not merely momentarily but a relationship that is to be built on. How beautiful is the unconditional love that He has given and continue to give us.
“As we’ve seen, letting God in can be complicated although there’s really nothing required to do but believe and follow. We simply have to open our hearts and let God love us. We just have to be honest about our need and let God be who He is, our Father whose loyalty is beyond measure. Our life with God isn’t about us trying harder, but about God completing the work He began.”
(Page 93 of the book Pursued: God’s Divine Obsession with You by Jud Wilhite)
God is love, He isn’t a true love that once was but He is true love that is utterly and completely eternal. We always have the choice to begin again – to begin that conversation again, to reignite that passion to glorify His name and to ultimately grow in our relationship with Him.
It’s never too late.